you learn in life that most people care a lot less than you think. people you feel like you’d die for rarely feel the same way. no matter what you want to think, most of what we do is based on what we want. we help others to get something from it, even if it’s just a feeling of “i did something good”.
thats why you should cherish the people who do stay by your side through everything, but tbh that list of people is few and far between for me.
i think all too often people, me included, get brainwashed into this fantasy that eventually all the right people who fucked you over will apologize and things will go back to normal but honestly, most ppl couldn’t give two shits about you. they care more about their image and their ego that they can’t apologize at the risk of appearing weak to their peers. so we just end up waiting and waiting for shit that will never happen. i guess in this kind of situation you just have to accept that you got fucked over and that, likely, there’s not gonna be any kind of closure. you’re not gonna beat them up, they aren’t gonna apologize, life is just gonna continue and weather or not mine continues is based on weather or not i can move past these things.
i really miss how my life was a few years ago, but idk if i can ever have that back. i may just need to cut my losses and move on, as hard as it will be to officially say goodbye to a lot of the things that, at one point, kept me grounded here.
i don’t wanna end up in my mid-late 20s in the same shitty situations because i couldn’t get over shit.
anime trope episodes: the beach episode, the festival episode, the episode where someone doesn’t know how to cook western cartoon trope episodes: the episode where someone has several copies of themselves made, the episode where inanimate objects come to life, the episode that is a homage to a movie from the 1950s, the episode where someone is shrunk down to microscopic levels and placed inside the body of another person
its so surreal man. i remember so vividly crushing on her, asking her out, our first date, our first kiss, it was just gross adorable love shit but it was everything i wanted because she was my dream girl. she could do no wrong in my mind
idk i guess its just not that often that two ppl who started dating at 16 would last a lifetime. the first few years were great, but i think once the puppy love ended idk… she grew out of me. she didnt need me anynore